In a hurry.

The tighter you grip, the faster the sand will seep through your fingers. Slowly slowly catch the monkey. All will be yours in time.

Inanimate fickleness.

oh woe is me. crooked straight crooked straight. oh don't torture anymore my beloved snooker cue that has been with me for the past 8 years!! Please stay straight tonight because we are in the quarter finals. Just 3 more games before kaching kaching!

I love my cue!!!!

Miracles do happen after all. Last Tuesday I found out that the top part of my cue is bent :( I made lots of noise, going around asking people to fix it for me but was told that it's not easy to fix a bent cue. I've been training with that cue for a few months so it would be really crappy if I had to play with a different cue during tournaments, or lagi teruk, if I had to use a house cue. I was contemplating real hard whether to use a house cue or just use my senyek cue. The house cue head is thicker than my senyek cue, my senyek cue is of course senyek, and I just don't feel comfortable playing with other ppl's cue.

So yesterday during training I took my cue stick out and rolled it on the table hoping that it somehow has returned to its straight state. Ya right, as if.. I tried my luck by bending it with my bare hands right before I took a shot. Then I saw MS. Of course, I did my whining and complaining to him about my crooked cue. I told him, wait you see me roll it on the table. Then I rolled it on the table AND THE CUE IS SO STRAIGHT!! MS was like, what, where got crooked. He also said its a good quality cue, so today play also a bit more confident la hahahahah

Am I lucky or am I lucky that when I tried to bend the cue back it is at the direction that it should be bent back? :)

But really, miracles do happen because my ladies singles tournament is TODAY and I'm playing against this big boned chick who wears a glove on her left hand when she plays. Oh such is my luck. I am not greedy, I just want to be the top 4 and get RM 800. If can get RM 2k then even better lah.

Okay gotta go get ready soon. :) MS said if I win he'll buy drinks to celebrate and if I lose he will buy drinks to drown my sorrows. I win either way. ha ha

Forgive, forget

Mom has been asking me whether I'll be joining the family trip to Shenzhen and Guangzhou. I really do want to go cos I've been dying to go to Guangzhou since forever... but I also know that this sub-human of a person is going as well. Like, why can't she go with her own family? Must she always be leeching? I think Mom knows that I can't stand being near her. Over dinner she told me I shouldn't be holding grudges. I've thought about this over the weekend and the truth is, I really want to go to have some quality time with my family. It's not often that we get to go on a trip together. I guess I may go if I do not have to sleep in the same room with her. Other times I can just pretend she doesn't exist. Okay that may not be so easy since it's a private tour ie no one else but us. Maybe she can go for the Denver cosmetic surgery so that I don't have to look at her face. She's gotta fund it herself, of course.

Damn it why can't she just go with her family!!!!

Funny nose job

I finally saw her newly constructed nose. Hahahahahhahaha it looks so bloody weird man! I don't remember what her old nose looked like anymore, but I can only imagine and it probably looked better than what it is now. Isn't it sad to pay for a nose job only to have people think that your old nose look better?

On the other hand, few weeks ago I read this book about how this chick hated her flat chest and went to do a boob job financed by a bank loan. She suffered lots of physical pain after the surgery but when her wounds healed, she went on a flirting and seducing spree to boost her confidence. Later her implants failed her (they exploded, okay not exploded maybe just leaked) and she had to remove her implants to get new ones. Oh, she had to get another loan to change her implants too. Ouch. That's a lot of pain, money and risk for nice breasts isn't it? Anyways she couldn't feel her nipples even when one of her conquests pinched it. I guess Santa Monica plastic surgery is not for the everyone huh. (like those who are not rich, those who are afraid of pain)

Second piece of domino

Today is a very sad day for Malaysians. I feel especially sad when I see my fellow Indian brothers and sisters out there fighting for freedom to voice out their opinions but instead were greeted with violence and rigidity. It was supposed to be a peaceful gathering after all.

I am scared. Will we one day experience what my parents did in 1969? Mom said she was so scared holding a parang guarding the front door. Will anyone of us need to be in that position of fear again in 2007 or even 2008? Will there be more rallies in the near future? What will be the government's next move?

To those who were arrested, to those who were dragged around and abused, I feel for you. God bless.

When I was young..

A trip to Berjaya Time Square at Jalan Imbi reminded me of how unfashionable we were as teenagers. I remember wearing really gross fluorescent yellow t shirt from this sports brand called 'Forest' tucked into a pair of high waisted carrot cut jeans + belt. I think I was 14 at that time. Of course, being young and confident I thought I looked damn 'yaoyeng' at that time.

Typical of teenagers, the kids at Berjaya Time Square dressed in bright colourful clothes in true Harajuku style. They wore mismatched knee length socks in polkadots on one leg and striped ones on the other. On their feet they wore brightly coloured sandals. And they sure are liberal with body piercing these days. They have the same rocker chick blue black hairstyle. It's this messy look with fluffy hair at the top and thinning ends... I wonder whether they will be embarrassed of their dressing when they are older and looking at pics from their younger days..

Ok better hide the pics from my teenage years... bet my kids will laugh their asses off if they catch hold of them...

Curse you!

I am so bloody angry!!! I don't understand just why every bloody year I have to compete with those bloody idiots for his time. And the best part is he just asked me to go out with them. Like, why the hell would I want to spend time with people whom I don't even like? Sure, I'm stereotyping all of them, but who the hell cares because I don't! Every bloody year this happens. Do I even matter to him? Should I even plan anything? I'm so bloody pissed off. I have the right mind to format all their harddisks or just lock them up in nursing homes in New York City so that I don't have to see them ever again. Or maybe I could hide shrimps into their curtain railing so that they'll rot and stink up their houses. Or I could pour hair bleach into their shampoos.

I am so angry!!!!!!! I think there's a curse. It's like this every year.

Cute little button nose

My sifu gave me a natural look makeover few days back. Just one colour for the eyes to make them 'pop' and light cheek colours. But the thing sifu did that made the difference was that she contoured my nose with brown shadow and highlighter to make it look taller. I don't know why I've never done that before this.

I know for a fact that a lot of girls love to have defined high nose which is deemed as beautiful nose in the Asian society. In fact, many even go to the extent of going for rhinoplasty, better known as a nose job. It's not really everybody's cup of tea, but for now I'll forgo the pain and the permanency and just stick to using makeup products to make my nose look taller. It's not that tough to put on some makeup every other day...

Of course, I'm not saying that I hate my nose lah. I got cute button nose. :P

Are white lies okay?

One teammate made it for the mens singles, but another didn't. :( too bad.

Found out today by coincidence that a close friend told me a little white lie. I know she's trying to protect my feelings, but it was still painful to know that she fibbed to me. Ok got it off my chest.

/forget

Bloody slut.

No matter how determined you are at keeping life simple and sweet, there are times when your emotions completely take over any logical reasoning that you have, and you end up feeling like one huge mess of an idiot.

We are all adult and we know what we are doing!

Stop making your own conclusions, assumptions, and just concentrate on getting well because you bloody have to play pool this saturday!!!! As for dealing with it, you know you can do it. You're perfectly capable of returning the favour.

Finally got a nokia 2630.

I finally bought the nokia 2630 after my bf's 139339993th complaints about how he can't hear me properly on the phone. Cheap cheap, only RM 430 for original set. It's a very basic phone, because I just don't know which phone to get but I want to get something TODAY to stop him from complaining anymore... There are just so many phones out there. At first I wanted to the the nokia E series because then I can get wifi and get online anywhere anytime, but couldn't make up my mind on which one to get. So screw it, just get a simple one this time, and the next time will be a super canggih phone. :)

The nokia 2630 is nice. Very slim. Only crappy part is that it has only a VGA camera (my panasonic v2's camera is 1.3mp), but that's okay for now. I don't really use my phone to take pics anyway. My sister said she will glam up my panasonic flipphone with swarovski crystals. Can just get another simcard and use that too! Yay I love my panasonic forever.

Still sick. The ladies singles tournament is this Saturday. I NEED to get well soon. Can't think properly when my nose is all screwed up.

p/s: with bluetooth now i can get all the happening mp3 ringtones.. woot!!

Do we need girlfriends?

it was really good to catchup with gaytry and anna whom i haven't seen for at least 3 months. anna wanted to go to j&r but gaytry didn't want to have sausage for dinner so we makan at this ceylonese place right next to it. i like that place. its not too pricey and despite my blocked nose i still enjoyed my food a lot. the menu was not easily understandable tho, so we had to get the waitress to give her recommendations. i really like that spicy crab soup. spicy hot, but also spicy in variety and amount of spiced used. its a really decent place but a bit quiet and not quite cosy enough so we moved next door for drinks. anna is now a wine snob so we had 2 bottles of white wine between the 3 of us and another girl who decided to join us at the v. last minute. after she left it was better because then we could resume bitching and doing our usual gossiping and wishful thinkings and talk about old schoolmates. and we did a lot. gaytry had to wakeup at 6 for work, so at about 1 am she drove home in her notorious blue car. her mom called her half an hour earlier wondering why the hell isn't she at home. ha ha.

on the way out teased some kwailous who are drunk with wine too. offered them cab services in my sisters cute silver myvi. that reminds me i need to put some petrol back into that tank.

anna wanted to go for second round so we went to plaza ttdi. thought we could catchup bit more over drinks, but this dude came to join us, and we couldn't even really talk. i'm quite impressed with anna tho. she didn't look pissed at all and she was actually quite good with ppl. in my mind my anna is always the one dissing ppl off. anyways the dude owns the place (according to kenny he signs the chq) and i made her 'pretend' that she's not really married even though the guys know that she is. it was really funny.

but suddenly i felt weird gastric pain so kenny gave me some crackers. at first he said got cheese, but then he only gave the crackers. anyways after 2 drinks we decided to make a move. when i reached her mom's place the gastric pain is already gone. must be the damn white wine la. acidic gila babi. when we were in the car anna pulled out two packs of crackers that she stole from the guys because they didn't buy us drinks although they bloody run the place.

then i wanted to have another ciggie before i leave and so we sat outside of her door smoking and talking bullshit for maybe 10 mins then we walked to my sisters cute silver car when i suddenly felt like having another ciggie so we sat right at the neighbours doorstep where my car is parked at and chatted for another 15 mins. it was really good to catchup. i didn't realise how bored with life i've become till i enjoyed the companies of those who won't judge you.

they were genuinely happy for me and the choices i have made recently. i am very happy too. keep life simple and sweet. how true. this is precisely how i'm gonna live now.

p.s:- sick like a dog. nose leaking sore throat major headache.

Interesting Kuantan.

I is back!

The Kuantan trip was a peaceful and relaxing one, spent with my beloved. It was my fourth trip to Kuantan. First two times was spent lazing in the sun at Swiss Garden Resort at Pantai Beserah, and third time was when I had to give some work related talk at Hotel Vistana.

Interesting things in Kuantan...

1. Walk walk at this pasar malam that is probably only 100 meters long. It was kinda like a Ramadan bazaar, with lots of food and drinks offered. I didn't find anything that I cannot get in a pasar malam in KL, but I did try the ayam percik stick. Only RM 1 per stick. I chose two sticks from the bottom of the ayam percik stack because there were at least 100 flies hovering around it. I was hoping that the ones at the bottom are still relatively clean. I ate the two sticks of ayam percik was I was driving to Kuantan town and it was a really messy affair, me, the ayam percik sticks, tons of tissue, and maneuvering the steering wheel. Oh, I also bought this coconut jelly from this one old makcik. It reminded me of the ones I could only find at the Thursday flea market at Plaza Sunrise. I bought two (RM 2 for 2 small tubs), and kept them in the hotel fridge so that we could enjoy them later. We did, but it was not enjoyable. Too soft and too yucky. Bad buy.
   
2. I had dinner with a bunch of people in this chinese tai chao restaurant which is somewhere in between Beserah and Kuantan town. We had this ginseng chinese herb chicken soup thing, this pork in yam ring dish, prawn cooked in my mom's style (mom's better), some boring vege and something else that I cannot remember at the moment. It was a nice tasty dinner. It was only RM 85 for 5 dishes, 2 drinks and a big bottle of beer. Cheap. I needed to pee, so off I went to the loo. On the way back to the table, I stopped by the counter and bought a pack of cigarette. Suddenly it hit me that those at the table might think that I'm settling the bill. Whatever. I walked back, had a cigarette, and when another guy asked for the bill, the aunty-captain-waitress claimed that I have already settled it. See, I'm psychic. Anyhow, luckily I'm an honest person, and I said I only went to buy ciggies. So too bad, the guy had to get the bill. His turn to belanja ma.
3. There's this shopping mall smacked right in the middle of Kuantan town. I think it's called Berjaya Megamall. The building is green, but has crackline motives all over the building. It looks so bloody weird. My bf thinks that it was probably cracklines, but Berjaya decided to just make the whole building uniform. Make sense also what. I think that may be the most happening place to shop in Kuantan, they even got KFC, McDonalds and Pizza Hut. Ok I'm being nasty. Truth is, the place really does give you the kampung feel. The place is huge, but I feel that it's even worse than Atria in DJ. There's a GSC there, and you can bring outside food into the cinemas! Cool or what. My guess is, not everyone can afford GSC priced popcorns and fizzies...
   
4. Had a walk at Teluk Cempedak at night. We parked right outside of Hyatt, and walked through the resort to get to the beach. Sand was rough(?) and it was very dark. I think both the state and federal government have done a very bad job at developing beaches for tourism. Hell with tourism, why can't they just develop it for their own people's R&R? We have such a long coastline = lots of potential, yet we have nothing to show. Look at Phuket. Massive crowds at the beach, and tons of local vendors carting food, drinks, souvenirs etc to be sold to the suntanning tourists. Why haven't anyone done that in Malaysia? I didn't like to pay to use the deck chairs in Phuket, but it's a legal exchange of money for services/goods.
   
5. Watched 2 dvds back to back on laptop with bf. We saw this hongkie movie and another one by M Night Shyamalan(?) called Lady Under the Water. Or maybe it was called Lady from the Water. We hardly ever watch dvd when we are in KL. Anyways, both the movies were good. M Night is very good at building up the story line. Then we walap the nasi lemak + sambal sotong + telor goreng that I tarpaoed from a coffee shop. Yummy. It was really really pedas, and not too sweet. Okay I forgot that I also had two pairs of chicken wings. There's this really funny thing about ordering chicken wings. I can't explain it in English. It has to be done in Chinese.
   
6. There's this place called Kemaman Kopitiam that's supposed to be a place to sight celebrities, politicians, VIP. It's funny that our local 'tourguide' told us that this is a famous place for Pahang coffee, when Kemaman is really in Terengganu. It turned out that there is a Kemaman Kopitiam in Kemaman, and this is another chain of branches owned by the sister of the original chain owner of the original Kemaman Kopitiam. Whatever. I quite like the place, it has a clean feel to it. It's kinda like a high class mamak, brightly lit with the right type of lighting, definitely no fluorescent lighting here. The coffee was nice and strong, I had the kopi ais that the 'guide' recommended, and I quite liked it. RM 4.90, and it came in a disposable plastic cup that can be sealed (like those taiwanese bubble tea). I didn't spot any celebrities, vips or politicians, but there were a lot of photos displayed. I only recognised our DPM, DS Najib. Oh I forgot they got free wifi here.
   
7. Searched for a quiet bar to start off the night. This was on a Friday night. The first one we went to had 0 people aside from those working there. About 50 meters away was this pub. Opened the door and there was really loud music, but it was so dark we couldn't see anything at all. And they played dangdut music. We concluded it must be some place for dangdut orgy parties and decided to just go straight to Swing, supposedly the best club in Kuantan. It was just after 10 pm, and although relatively empty still, the place looked okay and more importantly, it looked decent. The band was just starting and they were good. Plus they sang my request for Mungkin Nanti because I said I was leaving very soon. Doesn't matter that I stayed on 2 hours after that. The dj played pretty hip music too. It was a mostly Malay crowd at Swing, maybe 90%. Where are the Chinese? Are they at home studying for SPM or what. That reminds me, it's kinda funny to see guys shuffling to R&B and hiphop.
   
8. Had the most awesome 'lor' pig intestines. It was super yummy, and super bloody cheap. RM 3 for a bloody huge portion that my bf and I couldn't even finish. The chicken rice was okay. We also ordered this... pork balls in curry soup, as in those in curry mee. My god it was bloody fantastic. Pedas enough, and the right amount of santan. I even tarpaoed two packets for my sisters who are forever asking for food...
9. I have this thing about going to restaurants with lots of people with the theory that so many people can't be wrong, right. Anyways, I was driving around looking for a place to have my dinner, and I saw one with lots and people, so I parked my car. It turned out to be the same place that I ate at the last time I was in Kuantan for work (alone). I employed the same method of finding a place to eat too, the last time that I was there. Love driving around exploring new places. They even have the extra peppery pork stomach soup that I love. Ahhh life!

Kuantan was nice, except for the fact that I got lost getting into town, and got lost trying to get onto the highway. They really do need help with the signboards. Desperate help.

Nice and peaceful now, just the way I like it. Classes starting this week. Can't wait. :)

Packing for Kuantan

I'm packing up for a few days away to Kuantan. Somehow the act of decanting your toiletries into travel size containers seem like a very adult thing to do.

Okay, packing about 90% done, just need to paint my toenails. I wonder what's nice to makan in Kuantan. It should be monsoon season at the east coast, but will cross my fingers that it will be sunny the few days I'm there. Surely it can't rain everyday, right.